The Place We Call 'Home'

• A lot of 'middle or lower class' (as they call it) people do not get their daughters married, only out of the complex of not having enough dowry to sell off their girls to add to the socially acceptable reproductive process of life.

• A lot of similar categories of parents have their daughters sitting at home, delaying wedding dates only because they do not have enough money to arrange big marriage functions (most of which is extravagance and materialistic pomp).

You say this is the "Islamic Republic of Pakistan'??! Honestly, I think it's a whole lot of nonsense. If you look at Islam, the Prophet Mohammad P.B.U.H. wed off his  daughter only with 2 dresses and a bowl and maybe one more utensil (ans yes, there were no extravagant Mehndi or Baraat functions).

• A lot of married women are tolerating unworthy and despicable 'husbands' only because they don't want to 'disgrace' their parents, or leave with their kids with no father (and in many cases, thus no income).

• A lot of girls, who have taken over competitive seats of some other guys, do not work even after graduating from professional universities, mostly after getting married. If they could not commit themselves to the careers they chose and in fact fought for, they had no right to kill employment opportunities otherwise utilized by those deserving boy candidates in the first place.

• A lot of the social, professional, personal and other activities are planned according to the timings when there would be electricity available, with electric failures happening after every hour, or every few hours.

• A lot of people are scared of leaving home even for work when it's raining, because our WASA (Water and Sewerage Association) is basically and functionally so non-existent that there would be scenes of floods on the roads even and thus secondary problems even after a normal monsoon shower.

etc., etc.,
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• A HELL lot of people (Pakistanis) are definitely scared to raise their voices against all this anti-human anarchy (anarchy, NOT democracy), only out of fear of any dire consequences, or due to passivity because they're sure it won't have any sort of impact. But even if on an individual basis, we become aware of what we have and what we are letting ourselves get deprived of, for someone else's baseless ulterior motives, a change IS possible.

We all very well know what's going on around us, and what delusions we are made to believe in, when both the encoders AND decoders of those beliefs are aware that the latter are not actual fools to accept those lies in their heads. Still, if we do not speak up, only because of some stupid fears, then they are definitely right to take you as their fools. If the so-called leader is sold out, we are not. It is also your duty by your religion of Islam to rebel against tyranny. You could only start by standing up for your values and rights, and respecting those of others rather than trying to pull them down with you as well, which has unfortunately turned into our 'national trait' (disgusting!).
And then you also have the guts to raise fingers at others without getting to know their prerogative first, just because they're at least trying to act out of their conscience and integrity!
Giving up is easy; carrying the torch forward is the challenge. And once we unite, it won't be so much of an uphill task anymore, anyway. Just awaken from your slumber, and climb out of your dark shells of self-imposed mental blockages, Pakistanis!! If we are not one today, then it's high time we felt shameful and morally obligated enough to start now.

The world is using me, but it's alright: I just hope all my energy (or most of it) is used up wisely. I'm here to emanate my energies into the making of something higher than the cliched human objectives. I ain't here for money, not for power or domination OR violence; I just wish to raise my voice against the wrong (the wrong being what breaks any human soul), and to save whatever life experiences can help others make a better sense of the world and of this life, that is just too abstract for us to understand.
I'm here to explore, to make the best of what I have been taught and fed, to figure out which of these teachings to reject, and what to absorb and internalize; and then, what to realize via my own intuition and logic. For once my human experience reaches close to completion, I can move on to the games of the soul.
To me, the human bodies are no more than 'energy transmitters' for the positive and the negative, as per their soul's desire to choose.
I do not claim to save anyone, for I am no Jesus or some god, but yes, I could do what's possible in my human capacity to make this world a more friendly dimension for us. I love life, provided that it's based on 'living' and living it well with the good and the bad. But the 'world', as in the world as it is presented to us today, could definitely be made into a more positive experience. Do not look at the reasons to be sad, and you shall find little, simple reasons to be happy, which has nothing to do with how much money you have in your pocket. It's more about how much of 'you' you have in your life, and in your soul of course.

I search for my face in the reflection of their eyes, and I only see a blur. Feeling can never depart us, as long as we are alive and mentally functional in this realm of the material world. Many have tried to escape the atrocity they suffer due to their sensitive souls and constant heavy thought processes in different ways. Those who achieve Nirvaan, like the ancient yogis and eccentric Dervish and saintly people, and those who die of drug overdoses, with or without  fame, attained freedom. Thus their destinies were the same, but their routes different.
Why would I, or anyone else for that matter, wish to break free from the intensely humane gift of feeling? Maybe because somewhere in our minds, we believe we are incapable of helping ourselves feel anything substantially positive and fulfilling. Maybe we have created a belief in our systems that "everybody is going to make you suffer in life" (Bob Marley), but we just don't want to trust anyone enough to choose them for our suffering.
Haven't we gotten too lonely inside? The wish for personal space has been so over-consuming, that there is no person left anymore inside who needs to be alone. Every person wants love and respect, and those who are running away from 'getting too close' to someone else, are actually scared: scared of themselves, of course. Are we not the prime cases of 'impotent human beings'? as I call it.
We wish to feel, and to feel peace of mind. But the disturbances of the degenerating material world cloud the mind, and fear, anger, hatred, disappointment, despir, helplessness, frustration set in. So a lot of us, as a survival mechanism, come up with mechanical relationships and numbness of emotions as a way to deal with the stress of the big and small elements and off-shoots.of the New World Order. But in this same way, are we not supporting the main cause of this so-called 'Order'? i.e. to kill the individual will and positive creativity of the masses, blunting their senses, and making them slaves to all the material they can accumulate.
Yes, if I had any heroes, they're all dead, and maybe they died in time. Maybe if they were prodigies of these times, they could've contributed more sickness of the mind to their masterpiece achievements; but, maybe their voices would've been silenced and drowned in the noise of the arrivals of Hell. Oh, you do not believe in Heaven or Hell? You don't have to, but even if you limit your tunnel vision to this present small world only, any person with common sense would know what works for him in this world. For some, nothing works. For others, nothing matters, for they know they've done their own share.

Since birth was an accident, life is a formality!

If we combine our spiritual existences together, we could conquer the universe and attain ultimate death in a state of complete insanity, but for the right reasons.

Early Morning Catharsis

My thoughts shall survive only as far as I can carry them. I can be mine only as much as I have the will to live. I breathe every breath in an air of fluctuation between levels of anxiety and partial peace.

"We're just two lost souls, swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year..
Running over the same old grounds,
What have we found?
Same old fears.."
-Pink Floyd.

Running around in circles, evrybody's looking for and running after something. Even the people who are or were hermits and saints were obesessed with finding the peace and Nirvaan; either seeking indifference towards the truth, leaving it to their Higher Powers, or escape and isolation from the rest of the material world. In this sense, everyone is 'hooked on' to something or the other, many a time going on with a mechanical existence they call 'life', chasing after affairs that shall hold no meaning when all of this ends; or maybe, there is some subliminal logic and interpretation behind everything that the human mind fails to comprehend.
The life and world these days is very limiting and in fact, debilitating and destructive to our precious asset, the mind, which, to me, is an extension of the soul. Here, where we are taught everyday how to sell our souls for complete control, and this 'control' is in turn like a meth dragon that the tweaker can never chase. This dragon is what I call the 'collective reality' that people have developed as a comfort zone around themselves against the truth. It makes them blind but it's supposed to be their defense mechanism, and everyone has their individual, self-sought escape route.

"Much violence is based on the illusion that life is a property to be defended and not to be shared." - Henri Nouwen
You try to defend what never was yours..and in the end you're left with nothing..

Maybe if we learn to share our lives together, each of us could feel more alive!..But then again.it's all relative, and no matter how many elements and notions in our lives match, the concepts of existence and 'god' are the sacred possessions of each being separately.

Prisms of Paradigm

I'd say you need to slow down, take a deep breath, and finally feel human and alive. This pre-conceived notion of 'reality' that you've adhered to, is just an illusion to make it seem 'real'. Matter of the fact is, as I think, there IS no 'real', because its all in the mind. You can make it as good or bad for urself as you tune your mind to. True, systems, and differences of systems, and a widely and generally accepted notion of '(New) world order (read 'disorder')' are elements without which modern world could not exist. True, if things were, at all, any different, the whole course of events in our past, present and future would have to change; but does'nt this all appear a little too rigid for you? Why do you have to surrender your life to a belief called 'fate', that governs the important changes of events in your perception?...


Why would you not want to use for your own peace, and for others as a bonus, the inner powers, or potential that u possess? Why just sit back and accept things 'just as the way they are'? Does'nt this sound depressive and loser-ish too?..

But in the end, the freedom of choice is only one's own, and this choice comes from perception, and the refinement and evolution of perception all through life.

The 'world' out there, no matter how hostile it seems, offers itself to us fully, only if we have the eyes to see. We bring upon ourselves, incidents of elation and mishaps, consciously or subconsciously. The more we are aware, the more chances decrease for the 'mishaps', and this awareness, in turn, primarily comes from observation and analytical and internalization skills. All this determines what parts of our experiences remain in what section of the mind, and mould our personality in what way. This leads to the development of belief systems and perception in our mind. It is basically the individual who determines, partially by genetics, and also by learned or adapted behavior, what parts of information to process and retain as knowledge, and what to forgo in the conscious mind. We can either accept, without questioning, what has already been researched and practised by our predecessors, put forth to us basically; OR, we could exercise our urge to learn, our inquisitive nature as humans, a bit more with time to understand the 'system' or 'dimension' or 'world' we live in.

So, to conclude: the world you want is the world in your mind, and that's where you actually live in your spirit. I, as a dominant idealist, would say my world is peaceful, where people are not scared and hiding behind masks; where the worst happens to the worst, in whatever way, and most of the people smile at each other with genuine human love.